Patience and Faith

Patience is not a virtue I possess.  

I’ve known this for a long time, but with college acceptances and internship verdicts there is no exception.  It has been 41 days since my Coach internship interviews.  More than 41 days since I tweaked my resume and stressed over which outfit to wear.  It has been 18 days since I was supposed to notified.  I’m obviously handling that very well…

So I’ve e-mailed, tweeted, and complained through whatever means necessary to try and get some answers.  I finally resorted to THE PHONE CALL today.  

“Hello this is Allison Deutschman, I was a candidate for the Coach internships back in March.  I was just calling to find out when candidates would be contacted or if you would be contacted even if you were declined the opportunity?”

“Hi Allison, the candidates will be contacted tomorrow.”

“Okay. Thank you!”

“You’re Welcome.”

“Good Bye.”

I know I rambled, I tried to get straight to the point.. but hey at least I know tomorrow is the day.

Tomorrow I will have the verdict on how I will be spending my 78 days of my summer.  On the couch watching netflix 24/7… or in the city where dreams are made (with a side of netflix).

I have finally decided how I am spending my fall, winter, and spring for the next 2 years: at FIT.  The deposit is in, the decision is final.  I am going to be completing my Bachelor’s Degree in Fashion Merchandising at the United States’ best Fashion school. 

Muy Bueno.

I’m pretty excited about this.  I’m also scared about of my mind, but I am really really pumped.

This upcoming fall semester will be so different from my last one.  I’m already talking to some girls about getting an apartment.   I choke about every time I hear about housing expenses, but hey you can’t have it all.

I’m in a really good mood today.  I think it is because the weather is feeling pretty Floridian, it’s reached the low 70s and although there are still pine trees instead of palm trees in my front yard I will take it.  

I wish I had a cute beach hat.. I love the ones I found on my new favorite site:  I wish cute beach hats were socially acceptable about the Mason Dixon line.


Speaking of cute hats, I went to an estate sale last week and saw these lovely big hats in lovely hat boxes from at least 20 years ago.  They were very dressy and totally not the norm, but I drooled and debated.  I ended up buying a Coach purse (surprise surprise) and fur trimmed coat (I FEEL LIKE I BELONG IN OLD HOLLYWOOD) instead, thinking I would come back for the hat if it was still there the next day.

But the whole house was gone the next day.

That mansion burned to a crisp, along with the hat and little old man with Alzheimers inside of it. Talk about goose bump causing.

This week has certainly had some nationwide disasters. Between Boston and Texas, I’m scared to know what could happen next.

I didn’t go to church this past Sunday and I need to go this Sunday because just in case one of these disasters involves me.. I need God to know I love him.

My faith has been wavering a little bit lately.  I’m not a huge fan of this church that my parents go to and I never was a fan of the church before that.  I know that the world is just testing me, but in such a scary place I need to have faith.


Trends and temptations

Yesterday I went shopping to prepare for my trip to Panama City in April.  I splurged on some “Red, Red, Red” lipstick at Clinique as well some powder.  Both items weren’t originally on my list, but just like handbags, make up is so much easier to buy than clothes sometimes.  I bought 2 pairs of shorts and a pair of ankle pants from EXPRESS.  I noticed ankle pants in New York and Company, Banana Republic, JCPenney, The Limited, and LOFT.  They’re apparently going to be HUGE this spring/summer.  They flatter girls with a little more to love in the thigh region, but hit differently in length than capris.  I was confused at first by the trend, but now I love them. The shorts were a flattering 4 inch inseam and although difficult to find in a store with so little fabric, they were worth the search.

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Last year I was OBSESSED with JCrew’s 3-5inch inseam shorts.  I felt like they hit and fit perfectly.  I own at least 10 pairs, maybe 15.  The sad part, as was mentioned last post, is that those shorts don’t fit any longer.  I’m sipping a watered down Tim Hortons smoothie, instead of eating a crescent and I know I just had a “I love my body” post.. but I love those shorts.

And I refuse to go into stores like EXPRESS and LOFT and be the largest size.  I still stand by my comment that society is the issue, but society also makes it really hard for big girls.

And J Crew makes it tough because those shorts don’t have stretch.

So, for Spring Break I will wear the EXPRESS shorts and ankle pants.  I have some Lauren Conrad denim shorts that will also get me through the week, but besides that, I have to try harder to be healthy for the sake of J Crew by summer.

If I am down in Manhattan, ankle pants will be the perfect office appropriate bottom.  I also have all of those dresses I picked up at Charlotte Russe.  Even if it’s 10 pounds, my entire wardrobe would appreciate a little nip tuck.

While I was at the mall, I also was looking for more exercise attire.  I have always loved my Victoria’s Secret yoga pants, but was very disappointed!  The waste band prints look cheesy and tacky, not worth 40 dollars.  I was then further disappointed by my free panty coupon being out of date.  VS and I aren’t on speaking terms right now.

That isn’t necessarily a bad thing though, because my wallet can’t deal with her.  I have done really well saving money, but I signed up for my first credit card a few months back and she has this way of making me think I have more money than I do.  And with rent sky rocketing in the city, I have to save… but Coach just got in a shipment of neon rainbow colored packable totes that would serve as a fantastic carry on bag.



I bought the cutest luggage tag at Francesca’s Collections yesterday.  It said “You wouldn’t look good in my clothes.” and has my name and number on the back.  I always do carry on with Delta or Southwest, but I couldn’t resist.

I’m a little worried that with all these tempting purchases in the middle of nowhere, how I am supposed to resist NYC.  I suppose having a 10 x 10 cell -I mean room 🙂 to live in will play a role.  I have no idea how I would even bring all of my clothes with me, but I guess we will cross that bridge when we get to it.

On a random note, 6 weeks until I have my Associate’s!!!


Life is a party, so dress like it.

I have nothing to say, so I’ll say everything.

I’m graduatingggggggggg.

That’s the big thing going on right now. Otherwise my life consists of watching tv reruns and chickflicks, trying unsuccessfully to eat healthy, painting my nails, sleeping, shopping, and quitting Kmart.

Ah, yes. Quitting Kmart.

It might sound like a problem, but I’m starting to think the way they have “No Boyfriend, No Problem” t-shirts, they should have “No Job, No Problem” ones. For the teenage generation at least. When all I am supporting is an unhealthy shopping habit and the internet for my phone? Why even bother.

I also may not be unemployed for long, I caught wind of a counselor job at a Christian summer camp. The money is pretty good and I won’t have to stay in mohawk, but there are some disadvantages.


1) My wardrobe is not camper friendly. I have purchased 7 dresses in the last 1.5 weeks and most of them were handwashable.

2) Little Cell Reception (typical), but even worse no WIFI. I can’t blog, I can’t facebook, I might as well not even breath.

3) The few decent people that exist in mohawk, they know who they are, will be missed horribly. And if I’m moving away along with going to college, I don’t know if I’m prepared to never see them again after the next 2 weeks.

Yikes. That is making me second guess myself.. But that’s life right? We’re never sure. We change our outfits 3x a morning, change our hair color every other month, and even change career paths possibly more frequently. Why can’t we ever just be sure?

Because life isn’t like the movies. And I am the BIGGEST hypocrite, as I drool over Colin Egglesfield in Something Borrowed wishing life and my relationship with the opposite gender reflected movies, but it isn’t like that at all. It’s unpredictable. It’s worrysome. It’s exciting. It’s life.

There’s no other way to explain it. I’ve watched lie to me episode after episode and still can’t explain the way people think or react. Not in a realistic way that humans can grasp. All the science in the world can’t ever make you sure. Because science isn’t enough.


That got deep fast. Sorry.

Those intense shows (lie to me, not something borrowed haha) bring it out in you. The inquisitive nature. The second guessing.

But why be sure?

Why not do things just because you’re not?

One of my favorite quotes is by Lilly Pulitzer.

Life is a party. Dress like it.

The only thing we know for sure about life is that it’s happening. So why not let it happen in the best way we can? Tonight my brother graduated the 6th grade. Makes me feel incredibly ancient, if we’re being completely honest. So, my brother is wearing a polo and black pants. He looked fine, casual but nice. I desired to wear a ball gown, resisting the urge I still wore 5 inch purple heels that rarely see the light of day for fear of judgement and a sundress. I was more dressed up than the superintendent for Christ’s sake.

But ya know what?

We’re never sure what to expect. We never know even how we SHOULD dress.  But we do know that life is a party. And life is gonna happen.

So dress like it.