Thrilled and terrified


Hello lovelies,

Just another day lounging around, except it suddenly became a lot more exciting.  I decided a few days ago that it was time to apply to FIT (Fashion Institute of Technology)!!

I know what you’re thinking, HAULT. Put on the breaks. What?

Weren’t you just blogging about being happy at Canisius and knowing you need to go back.

Well, yes.

And I am going back, for this semester!  But I could not bear with the idea that I would not allow myself the option of attending FIT next fall, when I think I’m growing out of Canisius already.

I will miss my friends, and some of the oppertunities that have presented themselves, but I can’t limit myself.

My parents taught me this when we moved out of the middle of nowhere last year.  My mom said it was scary, my dad shrugged his shoulders.. but they both came to the same conclusion.

You need to do what is best for you.

Canisius is a great place, don’t get me wrong.  If you’re considering it? Take the risk.  It’s just not where I feel my passion can flourish the best.  It needs to be cultivated and embraced.

Fashion deserves to become my life again.

And maybe I am sitting on my bed thinking too hard again, like I do almost each night around 1 AM, but there’s a reason for that.

If I was content, we’d have a much bigger issue on our hands.  There is always room for improvement.

I had the ironic deadline of January 1st for my application to be due, so I couldn’t make a new years resolution to figure my life out.

I just had to act on it.

I would be transfering in as a Junior. Which is terrifying.

But it is the only way I could enter the Bachelor’s program.. So I’m picking up an extra class this semester and hoping to pick my life up and go to Manhattan September 2013.

The money being spent on Canisius just isn’t practical any more.  I will save a ton by “skipping” my sophomore year -since I attended HCCC and have those credits.  I need to do this.

But in order to do this, I need to get in.  My gut drops significantly, knowing that I didn’t get into Marist last year.

Marist’s selectivity rate was 34%.  FIT’s is 43.

I have done much better in college than highschool with a 3.7 though. I achieved a 3.97 at HCCC and a 3.88 at Canisus so far.  I can only pray that’s good enough.

What’s scarier than the bagillion people in Manhatten though? Is the major choice.

I decided to apply for the Advertising and Marketing program.

*crickets*

It’s communications related, at a fashion institution. But it isn’t journalism.

So am I back at square one? I don’t think so.  I think I just need to get that degree because it’s a much of comm and fashion and creativity.  And it’s 10,000 dollars cheaper even before scholarships.. So all of this overanalyzing at late hours will be worth it.

I was creeping on somebody’s twitter last night and I saw this:

Nobody looks back at their life and remembers the nights they got plenty of sleep.

Well, I sure won’t anyways.

Allison

Dress well, think well.


It’s incredibly hard to believe my first semester at Canisius ends on friday.  I have extremely mixed feelings about it.  I’ve made GREAT friends here, I get to do pretty much whatever I want.. I know how to get around by bus and metro even though I don’t have a car and it’s always exciting and adventurous.  Some of the adventure, like shootings, robberies, getting lost, paying bills, and figuring out life for myself aren’t easy.  It especially feels difficult because it’s finals week this coming week and when all I want to do is curl up in a ball watch movies and stuff my face with chocolate.. it’s discouraging.  But I’m proud of my grades, and plan on kicking butt on the final.  I went to the mall to finish some Christmas shopping tonight, and rewarded myself with a purchase as well.  Momma might not believe me, but I do my best work when I’m well dressed.  It may be a mindset, but hey any excuse to buy an infinity scarf and sparkly sweater.

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I can’t escape the leggings, sweaters, and scarf trend.  I absolutely adore it.  Maybe it’s because I’m allowed to indulge and still fit into clothing, unlike bikini season? But whatever I’m not a VS Angel, so I deserve to treat myself once in a while.

Tonight I’m eating chocolates momma sent me, sipping tea with my friend Mia and watching PS: I Love You.  It may be your stereotypical girls night, but I need it.  I’m long overdue for girl time and I need to indulge.  I think if I go to bed by 2 after a night of low key fun, I will be able to wake up for the Kate Spade sale on ebay tomorrow starting at 6am.

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I love a good deal and 75% off Kate Spade when you have connections for Santa (; this X-mas season, is very exciting.  I just need to wake up and find the perfect purse.  I still want to indulge in a Michael Kors Hamilton bag and Tory Burch flats, but we’ll prioritize that once I find out about getting a job for the break.  I have a babysitting gig lined up for New Years Eve and I put in applications to Target and Jo Anne’s, but I’m yet to hear.  I also applied to substitute teach in my sibling’s new school district, so I’m really hoping I get that.  It’s somewhat flexible and temporary since it’s hard enough to find someone that wants you to work for only a month.

This month off is going to be heavenly at first, enjoyable over X-mas… but it could get extremely boring extremely quick.  I’m trying not to go in with that attitude, but I don’t have friends in Youngstown since I moved there the day before I moved into college and have only been home 4 times.  All very family oriented occasions.

My mom says we’ll go to the gym, and we can shop.. but to do that I need to get a job.  I also need to take the car and explore the town, because I refuse to get lost like Black Friday again.  I just want to make sure I get a sense of independence when I go home, because I thrive on it.  I am looking to dedicate a lot more time to my blog and fashion articles over the break.  So if all else fails, the internet will continue to be my escape mechanism.  Feel free to approach me with things, I am always open to opportunities.  My e-mail is preppylogic15@yahoo.com.

Speaking of Fashion, and since I’m assuming you’re interested cuz you’re on a fashion blog.. have you seen the article written on Anna Wintour? More power to her.  Politics and fashion merging, thats practically a dream.  Check it out on http://www.refinery29.com/2012/12/40241/anna-wintour-ambassador

Allison