Thrilled and terrified


Hello lovelies,

Just another day lounging around, except it suddenly became a lot more exciting.  I decided a few days ago that it was time to apply to FIT (Fashion Institute of Technology)!!

I know what you’re thinking, HAULT. Put on the breaks. What?

Weren’t you just blogging about being happy at Canisius and knowing you need to go back.

Well, yes.

And I am going back, for this semester!  But I could not bear with the idea that I would not allow myself the option of attending FIT next fall, when I think I’m growing out of Canisius already.

I will miss my friends, and some of the oppertunities that have presented themselves, but I can’t limit myself.

My parents taught me this when we moved out of the middle of nowhere last year.  My mom said it was scary, my dad shrugged his shoulders.. but they both came to the same conclusion.

You need to do what is best for you.

Canisius is a great place, don’t get me wrong.  If you’re considering it? Take the risk.  It’s just not where I feel my passion can flourish the best.  It needs to be cultivated and embraced.

Fashion deserves to become my life again.

And maybe I am sitting on my bed thinking too hard again, like I do almost each night around 1 AM, but there’s a reason for that.

If I was content, we’d have a much bigger issue on our hands.  There is always room for improvement.

I had the ironic deadline of January 1st for my application to be due, so I couldn’t make a new years resolution to figure my life out.

I just had to act on it.

I would be transfering in as a Junior. Which is terrifying.

But it is the only way I could enter the Bachelor’s program.. So I’m picking up an extra class this semester and hoping to pick my life up and go to Manhattan September 2013.

The money being spent on Canisius just isn’t practical any more.  I will save a ton by “skipping” my sophomore year -since I attended HCCC and have those credits.  I need to do this.

But in order to do this, I need to get in.  My gut drops significantly, knowing that I didn’t get into Marist last year.

Marist’s selectivity rate was 34%.  FIT’s is 43.

I have done much better in college than highschool with a 3.7 though. I achieved a 3.97 at HCCC and a 3.88 at Canisus so far.  I can only pray that’s good enough.

What’s scarier than the bagillion people in Manhatten though? Is the major choice.

I decided to apply for the Advertising and Marketing program.

*crickets*

It’s communications related, at a fashion institution. But it isn’t journalism.

So am I back at square one? I don’t think so.  I think I just need to get that degree because it’s a much of comm and fashion and creativity.  And it’s 10,000 dollars cheaper even before scholarships.. So all of this overanalyzing at late hours will be worth it.

I was creeping on somebody’s twitter last night and I saw this:

Nobody looks back at their life and remembers the nights they got plenty of sleep.

Well, I sure won’t anyways.

Allison

Politics and Fashion


Darlings,

I want to buy evvvvverything. It’s slightly problematic, considering I don’t have a job or a budget that allows for that.  Sweaters and leggings are the usual thing here in the CHILLY gross NY winter. I heard earlier it’s going to be 65 on sunday though, how is a girl to prepare for these weather bursts?! My capris are home and I have returned almost anything light weight or sheer. I’ve decided I have a problem with deciding what to wear in the morning. it’s the overwhelming desire to wear something I haven’t worn before (but I can’t wear something completely different every day) or at least the same way I did originally. I’m running out of options on a college student budget.. Thankfully,  Christmas is right around the corner! And I put in a job application for a leadership position on campus and got an interview!! So hopefully the no job deal will end ASAP.  If I ran into a pile of cash the first things I would buy are on Ann Taylor.

The freshman 15 has blessed me with a few more curves (WAH) and I am enjoying clothing made for women a lot more than juniors lately. My newly double digit physique adore Ponte Leggings and their Modern Skinny dark wash jeans. I highly recommend them to anyone that was not given the gift of a pencil thin body. Heck, I even recommend them to the girls that were. I think these HIGH QUALITY THICK FABRIC leggings could make a girl with loads of cellulite and layers of love on her thighs (; look heavenly.

Leggings CAN be worn as pants if worn appropriately and of the proper material make up.

Tights on the other hand? *shudder* PLEASE ladies. Pass this on, like a public service announcement.. nobody should see that! A dress is supposed to cover that region that is SHEER ON TIGHTS.

Anyways, maybe thats just a Canisius College girl problem. I doubt it though.

Canisius College doesn’t have that many problems though, like next friday? I’m meeting a bunch of Communications Alum. What on opportunity ! I’m reaaaaally hoping that someone has a fashion background or job related so that I can reaffirm the reason I am in this major.  Lately journalism sounds like a plausible switch, but I’m not sure.

I submit my new schedule Saturday at 9 am (which should be illegal) along with most of the sophomores on campus and I am trying to sign up for the following classes:

Religious Studies, Philosophy, Writing about Lit, Travel Photography, Keyboard Musicianship, Comparative Govt & Politics, Math & Politics, E-commerce & Web design, Communication Theory, Mass Comm, and Writing for the Public Media.

Don’t worry, only 5 of those classes.. I just had to make a back up schedule in case I don’t get my top choices.

Speaking of Politics though, what did you all think of the election results the other night? I know I’m probably late to ask opinions, but boy did I have some… I blasted them ALL OVER TWITTER. Which is probably something I should work on, but I really didn’t care.

I’m not an Obama supporter, I was routing for Romney the other night.. A disgrace to my state I know. Whatever. I wasn’t shocked at the polls results, I didn’t vote myself.

EVEN THOUGH I’M 18.

Which I know is also probably a disgrace.

But in the ALWAYS democratic state of NY, what difference would it have really made? I know thats an awful attitude, but really what does my vote matter if I’m not in a swing state? It’s depressing if you think about it.

My Grandma, pres of League of Women’s Voters and all that Jazz would probably be incredibly depressed if I revealed to her that I didn’t vote. I’m really politically interested, though! So I might pick up a political minor.

I’m even taking a class on Woman’s suffrage right now..

I’m feeling shame.

It’s just I was moving! And I pre-registered to my old address and didn’t know where I was going to school back in April (check my blog, I swear!) so I never got an absentee ballot.

I wish I did..

Although the popular vote? That seems not to matter all that much. Romney was leading with that for a while, and the electoral college is obviously what matters so whatever.

I don’t like the electoral college personally.

And why is weed becoming legal in Colorado? And medical mary jane in Massachusetts? What’s happening to our country?

I don’t know much about drugs, but I think people should focus on more pressing issues like digging this economy out of such a hole IN OTHER WAYS. Like saving instead of spending?

I mean it works with shopping. Congress needs to realize spending money that you don’t have never ends well.

After all, I want a job. But you don’t see me opening a credit card and going hay wire no matter how tempting..

Allison

Two more days until the college part of me is on Summer Vacation.


I’ll never ever ever ever do it again.

Okay, maybe.. like if someone dies in my family, or I’m in a coma.. but I’ll really try to never ever ever leave everyone out of the loop from my life again! I can’t go without my blog, I talk about it so much! But I just didn’t blog for like 2 weeks? So what’s happened to me? Hmmmm.

WELL.

I made that 4.0 possible. I’m not saying I got it, but I’m saying after some major blog deprivation and super studying I am coming back from the 3.9 possibility haha

I’ve become best friends with my roomate and suitemates. I CANNOT wait until college. I got an e-mail about orientation and started getting nerves about the outfit I will wear already.

Besides planning that far in my future I’ve been planning a little closer too. In the next month is FASHION CAMP and after a few bumps in the road, I’ve figured out how I can be compensated for what I deserve (I mean this in the least greedy way possible) and I’ve decided on some project for my little minions to complete! Haha I mean that in the most endearing way :).

Last Saturday I went to a Fashion Show. Herkimer style. It was REALLY good. All this surrounding of fashion.. you would think I would never change my mind about what I want to do with my life/major/college experience.

I thought so too.

But I guess we both thought wrong dolls 😦 Very wrong.

I’m not meant for this! I decided on Canisius, except I thought the whole time I was meant to be on the Retail Buying end of Fashion. And everything is so much clearer now, I’m not!

Who would want to make the girl that failed the Trig Regents a retail buyer? What girl that failed the Trig Regents would WANT to crunch numbers?

GROSS. Not this girl.

So last minute, per usual, I changed my mind. The thing is, it’s for good this time. I am not allowed to change it back again!

I am going to Canisius. But I am highlighting my skills, like writing and talking.

So guess what I’m going for?

I should give you time, maybe a cliff hanger.. but I’m not going to. Because I have ranted in almost 2 weeks and I feel you deserve to know that I am going to be majoring in Communications with a concentration in Advertising and Public Relations.

AND I WILL BE TAKING THIS THE FASHION ROUTE.

None of my hard work will go to waste. And I will still make you all proud. After all, preps are known for their stubborness and hard working attitude aren’t they?

Wouldn’t want to dissapoint! 

Xoxo,

Allison