Depressing news and bright colored shoes


I jumped the gun.

I was overly confident and probably deserved the reality check that comes from not getting what you want.

Yesterday the verdict was in on the internship, and yesterday I did not consider what would happen if I didn’t like what I found out.

I did not get the internship.

I’m okay with it, but I will admit I was stunned.  I thought I might get the opportunity of rejecting it, not the other way around.

I am sure there were hundreds of girls with a similar reaction to mine. “The interviews went so well!” they would tell their mom’s, friends, and anyone within an earshot because they honestly did.

But if there aren’t hundreds of positions available, somebody obviously is not going to get the spots.

And this week that somebody was me.

I have accepted it and moved on.

After all, I am working really short weekend shifts and going to see a Fashion Show. I don’t have time to be down.

They’re giving awards to the most fashionable in the audience.. that’s a lot of pressure.

But bring it on, because I no longer have big decisions to focus on and the attire for a small town fashion show can take first priority.

Oh, well there are those projects I need to do. Really badly.

But I survived plenty of 3 am bedtimes at Canisius, I can pull them out for the next few weeks at home.

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Since I now have a vacant summer, I am trying to think of all the vacations and concerts I need to go on/to.  I shouldn’t spend a ton because I actually have the ability to work and save… but ya know how that goes.

I have mentally already decided I want to go back down south again.  I will be trapped in a city forever, so I deserve some quality beach time.

I love how bright and lively it is on the beach.  I like the purple and black colors of my bedroom, except being on the lower bunk of queen sized beds I constantly feel like I am in a jail cell.

Just that.

It would probably help if the room had more windows, or if upstate New York believed in sunshine.

Whatever, I’ll have to make up for the depressing news with some cute shoes.

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Patience and Faith


Patience is not a virtue I possess.  

I’ve known this for a long time, but with college acceptances and internship verdicts there is no exception.  It has been 41 days since my Coach internship interviews.  More than 41 days since I tweaked my resume and stressed over which outfit to wear.  It has been 18 days since I was supposed to notified.  I’m obviously handling that very well…

So I’ve e-mailed, tweeted, and complained through whatever means necessary to try and get some answers.  I finally resorted to THE PHONE CALL today.  

“Hello this is Allison Deutschman, I was a candidate for the Coach internships back in March.  I was just calling to find out when candidates would be contacted or if you would be contacted even if you were declined the opportunity?”

“Hi Allison, the candidates will be contacted tomorrow.”

“Okay. Thank you!”

“You’re Welcome.”

“Good Bye.”

I know I rambled, I tried to get straight to the point.. but hey at least I know tomorrow is the day.

Tomorrow I will have the verdict on how I will be spending my 78 days of my summer.  On the couch watching netflix 24/7… or in the city where dreams are made (with a side of netflix).

I have finally decided how I am spending my fall, winter, and spring for the next 2 years: at FIT.  The deposit is in, the decision is final.  I am going to be completing my Bachelor’s Degree in Fashion Merchandising at the United States’ best Fashion school. 

Muy Bueno.

I’m pretty excited about this.  I’m also scared about of my mind, but I am really really pumped.

This upcoming fall semester will be so different from my last one.  I’m already talking to some girls about getting an apartment.   I choke about every time I hear about housing expenses, but hey you can’t have it all.

I’m in a really good mood today.  I think it is because the weather is feeling pretty Floridian, it’s reached the low 70s and although there are still pine trees instead of palm trees in my front yard I will take it.  

I wish I had a cute beach hat.. I love the ones I found on my new favorite site: http://www.marleylilly.com.  I wish cute beach hats were socially acceptable about the Mason Dixon line.

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Speaking of cute hats, I went to an estate sale last week and saw these lovely big hats in lovely hat boxes from at least 20 years ago.  They were very dressy and totally not the norm, but I drooled and debated.  I ended up buying a Coach purse (surprise surprise) and fur trimmed coat (I FEEL LIKE I BELONG IN OLD HOLLYWOOD) instead, thinking I would come back for the hat if it was still there the next day.

But the whole house was gone the next day.

That mansion burned to a crisp, along with the hat and little old man with Alzheimers inside of it. Talk about goose bump causing.

This week has certainly had some nationwide disasters. Between Boston and Texas, I’m scared to know what could happen next.

I didn’t go to church this past Sunday and I need to go this Sunday because just in case one of these disasters involves me.. I need God to know I love him.

My faith has been wavering a little bit lately.  I’m not a huge fan of this church that my parents go to and I never was a fan of the church before that.  I know that the world is just testing me, but in such a scary place I need to have faith.

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Internship and job possibilities


Happy Valentines lovelies!  I am sitting at my dining room table inhaling lindt truffles refreshing my twitter feed.  Calories don’t count on Singles Awareness Day and I’m making up for the calories I missed out on when I fasted for Ash Wednesday.  I wore a red dress and lace tights to show everyone even though I may be dateless I wasn’t lifeless.  I scratched a few lottery tickets and broke even.  I slept in my Queen sized bunk bed (Papa finished them this past weekend -yay!!) until 11 and wasted time in my pajamas until around 1.

Why?

BECAUSE AT 1:15 I HAD MY DISNEY COLLEGE INTERVIEW.

I know I haven’t mentioned this huge life changing interview, sorry.. but I am still trying to figure out what I am doing with my summer.  I applied to work at the Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique or as a Concierge/Hospitality role in a hotel in Walt Disney World from May-Jan (just incase I can’t make up my mind on life in Manhattan or what schools to go to…no word on that yet).

My other option is a Coach Internship in NYC from May-Aug.  I have an in person interview March 8th.  It’s set up like a Job Fair, so I get to meet with HR reps in various departments such as styling and merchandising.  It sounds incredible, but because it is set up like a Job Fair, this invitation only interview is going to have as many people as a Job Fair might too.

That’s nerve wrecking.

What should I do if I get Disney?  It sounds fantastic, but it isn’t necessarily fashion related.  Also, I could know as soon as next week about the Disney positions, which means I have 10 days after that to decide.  I may not have even gone to NYC yet for the Coach interview!

Disney is really selective too, so what if I get neither?  Roughly 40,000 apply and 5,000 get chosen.. out of WDW and Disney Land.  That’s a lot more than 15 possible intern spots at Coach (guesstimating).

I suppose time will tell.  At least I have all those dresses to wear in either situation once the warm weather comes.

I also applied for the Jack Wills internship -which if you aren’t familiar it is the ultimate summer internship.

Like blows Coach and WDW out of the water.

Maybe I just say that since I already work for Coach and I don’t love rollar coasters, but wait.. Let me describe it.

Represent a preppy British brand on the beaches on a variety of Northeastern US coasts all summer, planning events at night.  Learn the retail and merchandising ropes from the industries best.  Getting the opportunity to go to London for a week, including the JW polo.  It’s the summer I have dreamed of.

Of course the competition for that is.. in the words of Tyra Banks:

Fierce.

I wouldn’t find out about being chosen in the top 150 for that until February 25th, and then I have to submit a 1.5 min video explaining why I deserve the summer of a lifetime.  Not to say I doubt your preppy votes on my behalf, but it wouldn’t be easy since I currently know like 3 people in the town I live in (including the guy I sold Coach flip flops to for V-day) so popularity isn’t my middle name.

It’ll all fall into place though I’m sure.  I applied for positions at Chanel, DEB, Aero, Rue 21, and ModCloth as an Assistant Buyer starting in the summer, because I will have completed my Associates.  When I’m not working 20-25 hours a week and completing 23 credit hours I have a surplus of time after all *sarcasm*

..oh guys I also don’t know what to give up for lent.  Clearly not shopping or chocolates, I was finally approved for a Discover Card (yaaaay for big kid accomplishments!) and work across from the Lindt truffle store. Remember those 12 pounds I lost when I left school? Me neither. #CatholicGirlProblems

Allison