Over online exposure


It has been a very long time since I blogged (almost a year) and I am nearly at a loss for words. This is ironic, even amusing, because a lot happened in my life during my absence.. a new job, death in my family, a break up.. but I am unsure of how to adapt those experiences for online publication. I never felt this way when I would write on my site before, but perhaps the natural censorship and desire for privacy that comes along with adulthood has finally made its way into my online presence.

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I had a difficult time returning to my blog initially because my laptop crashed in May 2019 and I waited until October 2019 to purchase a new one, due to the financial burden and, quite frankly, lack of motivation. I spend 8+ hours a day on the computer at work, it was… dare I say… REFRESHING to be unable to spend even more time behind a screen. On the other hand this felt like an incredibly long hiatus to try and explain once I did have a laptop in my possession again, especially when every other influencer I followed seemed to be posting consistently. Successful bloggers and media gurus rarely expose the strain that can come along with publicly documenting so much of your life. There can be unwelcome opinions and pain from rehashing life events in front of a less than forgiving audience, that gets to hide behind the cloak of anonymity. I hope that by divulging that I have been struggling with putting out content over the past year and deciding against exposing some of my life events online another influencer will feel less ashamed for taking time off as well.

In November I made the decision not to renew my website’s hosting services, after a costly and frustrating experience with HostMetro. This decision led to my previously designed Headway layout being incompatible with WordPress’ free hosting and ultimately left me feeling disappointed. I lost my Clearing Preppy’s Name logos and branding with their cursive pink writing and pearls, as well as my clearingpreppysname@gmail email address that was hacked, giving some cyberbot contacts and connections I spent years establishing. These were symbols of my blog’s identity for just under a decade.

When I did consider writing online again I was somewhat embarrassed and kept thinking “What are my goals for this post?”  and “What am I trying to address?” instead of just ranting about whatever would come to mind like I had previously. Writing mindlessly was a wonderful escape for me and I thankfully didn’t abandon it all together, rather I switched to good old fashioned pen and paper during my time away from my blog.. keeping journals stuffed to the brim with the rants and emotional documentation of the highs and lows of the past 6 months instead. Arguably, I should have been keeping these records for myself since the formation of my site, maybe even instead of publishing it all for the online world to see. Thankfully I don’t think there’s anything too exposing out there, minus embarrassing photos and over-exaggerated opinions on preppy fashion. With a new mindset now I wonder if I have forgotten how to write publicly without considering who will be reading it though. This might not be a bad thing. The youthful naivety that once allowed me to openly post my thoughts and opinions has been slightly tainted by life lessons, but I don’t regret them. I’m just learning more about myself and my needs. I am so glad I didn’t stop writing overall, but the writing is now just for myself, as it’s an incredibly therapeutic creative outlet for me. And I simply am not willing to share everything online anymore.

 

Sight seeing at Walden Galleria


Yesterday I went to the Walden Galleria mall (in Buffalo) and saw some interesting things.  I had an interview with Forever 21, but it was impossible to leave without popping into a few stores.. the result? This blog post.

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I saw pink eyeliner.

I have mixed feelings about pink eyeliner.  I really like the color, but I’m not sure what it does to the eyes?  Emphasize veins?  I’ve been hunting for a pink eyeliner, now that I’ve found one at Sephora, now I might understand why the color is hard to find.

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I saw impossible to wash rhinestone studded tops.

I’m not one for buying clothes out of practicality, but COME ON.  I saw so many rhinestone studded necklines on tops today, and I have no idea how you could wash them.  Even if I decided to go at it by hand (LOL) they would become damaged.

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I saw lots of wedge sneakers.

Nobody can convince me that combining wedges and sneakers is a good thing.  Wedges are worn for height and sneakers are worn for comfort.  They are two separate animals!  I am anti-wedge sneakers.  Barf me. Literal trend vomit.

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I saw an indigo denim jacket. (and now I want it)

Both Loft and The Limited had very cute dark denim jackets.  I had a faded denim crop jacket in like 7th grade and it was so ugly that it ruined denim jackets for a really long time… but I can already see how cute and essential an indigo denim jacket will be this fall so I need one. Obviously.

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I saw the perfect black leather pumps.

I don’t own the perfect pair of black leather heels. THERE. I SAID IT.  I don’t know why I haven’t invested money into a quality pair, but I need to.  And I saw ones that might have passed the test at Banana Republic.. but I didn’t try them on.  I wasn’t in the mood to spend $$$.

When I wasn’t sight seeing, I was shopping of course. I bought 2 pairs of ankle pants from The Limited.  They were only $10 a pair!!  It’s hard to be thrifty at Walden Galleria because it’s so big and there are so many tempting options.  I paid more in gas to get to and from the mall and I found out the Visual Merchandising Position was already taken at Forever 21 so if it weren’t for my awesome deal the trip would have been somewhat of a waste.

What “sights do you see” at the mall?

Why tv/movie characters are my fashion role models


If you look around you on an ordinary day, people simply don’t dress well.  I don’t live in New York City or somewhere glamorous, so maybe I’m harsh.. but go to Wal Mart and people watch, then get back to me.  Since “real life people” are such a let down, I turn to television/movie characters for inspiration:

Charlotte York: Sex and the City

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Many SATC fans turn to Carrie Bradshaw for style inspiration, but the true style goddess is Charlotte York.  Her flawless presentation and elegant clothing is like a Jackie O, yet so modern day.

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Blair Waldorf: Gossip Girl

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Also known as “My Queen”, Blair Waldorf is the inspiration for this blog.  She is the reason I wear headbands and pearls.  She is so sophisticated, classy, and high end that it’s difficult not to want to be her, or want her.. how Chuck resisted for so long is beyond me.

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Cher: Clueless

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My love for knee socks dates back to 1995, all thanks to Cher..  Okay, I would have only been 1, but you get my point.  I love how confidently she always struts in the most traditional prep wear.  17 years may have passed, but I would still dress like her.

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Marianne Bryant: Easy A

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Before Amanda went (twitter) crazy, she played the holy Christian.  Irony?  Maybe.  In real life I would never admire her style though.. unless we go back to her circa 2005. This just further proves my point that tv/movie characters are better.

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Which tv/move characters are your fashion role models?