Thrilled and terrified

Hello lovelies,

Just another day lounging around, except it suddenly became a lot more exciting.  I decided a few days ago that it was time to apply to FIT (Fashion Institute of Technology)!!

I know what you’re thinking, HAULT. Put on the breaks. What?

Weren’t you just blogging about being happy at Canisius and knowing you need to go back.

Well, yes.

And I am going back, for this semester!  But I could not bear with the idea that I would not allow myself the option of attending FIT next fall, when I think I’m growing out of Canisius already.

I will miss my friends, and some of the oppertunities that have presented themselves, but I can’t limit myself.

My parents taught me this when we moved out of the middle of nowhere last year.  My mom said it was scary, my dad shrugged his shoulders.. but they both came to the same conclusion.

You need to do what is best for you.

Canisius is a great place, don’t get me wrong.  If you’re considering it? Take the risk.  It’s just not where I feel my passion can flourish the best.  It needs to be cultivated and embraced.

Fashion deserves to become my life again.

And maybe I am sitting on my bed thinking too hard again, like I do almost each night around 1 AM, but there’s a reason for that.

If I was content, we’d have a much bigger issue on our hands.  There is always room for improvement.

I had the ironic deadline of January 1st for my application to be due, so I couldn’t make a new years resolution to figure my life out.

I just had to act on it.

I would be transfering in as a Junior. Which is terrifying.

But it is the only way I could enter the Bachelor’s program.. So I’m picking up an extra class this semester and hoping to pick my life up and go to Manhattan September 2013.

The money being spent on Canisius just isn’t practical any more.  I will save a ton by “skipping” my sophomore year -since I attended HCCC and have those credits.  I need to do this.

But in order to do this, I need to get in.  My gut drops significantly, knowing that I didn’t get into Marist last year.

Marist’s selectivity rate was 34%.  FIT’s is 43.

I have done much better in college than highschool with a 3.7 though. I achieved a 3.97 at HCCC and a 3.88 at Canisus so far.  I can only pray that’s good enough.

What’s scarier than the bagillion people in Manhatten though? Is the major choice.

I decided to apply for the Advertising and Marketing program.


It’s communications related, at a fashion institution. But it isn’t journalism.

So am I back at square one? I don’t think so.  I think I just need to get that degree because it’s a much of comm and fashion and creativity.  And it’s 10,000 dollars cheaper even before scholarships.. So all of this overanalyzing at late hours will be worth it.

I was creeping on somebody’s twitter last night and I saw this:

Nobody looks back at their life and remembers the nights they got plenty of sleep.

Well, I sure won’t anyways.


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